Unsent Messages

Remember when I fell for you? we were so young and had no idea what we were doing. You were the first person to actually like me back. I miss it. I miss us. Remember our first "date". I even dropped my plans with my best friend to be there. Then on the way, your friend Derek came up to us. He asked if he could come along. I gave you the look to say no but you still said yes. That was the first time I realized you probably didn't care. However, I was so blindly in love I ignored it. We got to the pizza place and you did not even make eye contact with me once until he got up to go to the bathroom. It was almost like you were embarrassed by me. I mean I can't blame you but that shit hurt. You were the only thing on my mind 24/7. My friends hated it because all I talked about was you. we hung out all the time and were inseparable. Only until your friends would walk up. you would act like you didn't know me at all. It really hurt me because I felt like I did something wrong. I can't do this anymore. At least you are happy. Memento mori