i would take it all back if i could. idk why i let you make me feel those emotions. you need to work on your mental stability and independence first, before trying to fill your voids and loneliness w other people. you're selfish for using people to fill your emptiness, n then leaving them behind when you no longer need them. if you're not over your toxic ex, which i feel like you're not, stop going out in search for other people. heal on your own first. despite all of this, i still can't get myself to listen to certain songs without the thought of you corrupting my mind. i hate myself for not being able to move on from you.