i’m sorry for everything i put u through. i’m sorry that i like him, but no matter how much you wanted me it only pushed me away. u didn’t even bother getting close to me. not really. and us, that hasn’t been real for so long. it’s just a construct in your mind. i wish you all the best, truly. and i love the attention, it makes me feel appreciated. but he, he makes me feel loved. he gets me, my humor, he stays up talking to me. he isn’t shy to call me out. he doesn’t do everything to please me. i don’t know where i stand i need to sort everything out. all the best.