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it really hurts, you make me hurt. i have been hanging on to thought of being with you for like two years now. we can never get the timing right and it physically and mentally hurts me. i want to tell you how i feel but ik you have many girls your talking to rn and you don't feel the same about me anymore. ik at one point i was the one you thought about a future with but i rejected you then. now i feel that way about you again but i cant tell you. i gave you girl advice last week. im so tierd of life but you make me hold on. im struggling in life rn and i just want to cry in your arms and have you hold me. but i can't tell you because i don't want to ruin our friendship. i want to be with you in our bad times and good times. our 1 week "test" relationship when we barley knew each other was terrible, i want you too se me the way you used to when we had known eachother for months and you saw me for me. i missed my window. and now i cry at the fact i could've had you. you were the first person i ever loved because i don't ever fall easily. i want you as more then a friend.