all of that stuff was in the past. it hurts me you feel that way. I really wanted you to become closer to God. I have made mistakes in the past that i know i shouldnt have done. it really hurts me that you feel like this. God loves you, i do too elly. Jesus is there for you. I really miss all of our memories together, night swimming, golf cart rides, skateboarding, and drawing with chalk on the sidewalk. I wish we could fix this and its really stressing me out.