Unsent Messages

tj, it's olivia. been almost five months. were you scared of falling? i truly believe that everybody i meet i come across for a reason, and i'm just so drawn to you. will we meet again in another life? t, i've changed so much i don't think you'd know who i am. our "relationship" politics or whatever we had together was REAL and i know it; we both do. i really just wanted to say that one thing you said really resonated with me. you said "you're not out of high school just yet; you still have time to get it together." i've been feeling like shit recently and thinking of your voice saying that brings me near tears especially knowing i'll never be able to have your sound advice again. what did i do wrong? did you just find another girl? i just cant think of why you would stop. i'm over you now, but i'll never be over you, you know? i wish you'd just give me the time of day, just once, to just talk to me like we used to. players will be players and it breaks my heart because i know you don't have to be like this. whatever lesson you taught me, i thank you from the bottom of my heart. i hope i can hear from you again freely one day. i really just needed to get this all out in the open.
i cherish you,
olivia