From: ABC
To: hayden
Date: November 19, 2020, 2:26 am
Adults always tell us that falling in love at young age is impossible. Or that I will never last. No I am not agreeing or disagreeing with them, they shouldn’t make it seem like it’s the worst thing on earth. Falling in love multiple times can slowly deteriorate your hope. All I wanted in life is to have someone. I don’t care if it’s one person or two people. I just want someone. No matter how many times you hurt me you broke me I still came back. I’m not saying I regret what we had, I regret what I didn’t say or do. I had no voice when it came to you. It hurt like hell seeing you with any other girl. it’s been months since we’ve even seen each other or talked. I wish you would talk to me. But I know shouldn’t. I know you will take it advantage of me again. I’m slowly trying to move on and see other people. As a matter of fact I found someone I know will treat me better, but there’s something holding me back. That something was you. No matter how much you hurt me or made me feel like crap, I will never tell you how awful you made me feel about myself. And I can’t ever hate you. But for now there is nothing I can do or say. I’m scared I will run out of time soon. I know you don’t miss me. You missed the thought of having a girlfriend. You knew damn well you had me wrapped around your finger. And I wouldn’t ever speak up. To think I even gave you another chance let alone five. I will never hate you. I will never make you feel the way I did. I hope you find a girl I never was. I wished you would have just told me how you truly felt. I hope when you find the girl of your dreams, I hope to God she treats you well and passes your needs and wants in a girl. I really wish I was good enough for you. I’ve always grown up to see people never last. I’ve never seen anyone in my family that’s together and truly happy. I just wanted to be enough for someone. Thank you for opening my eyes and teaching me not to fall in love with someone that doesn’t know what they want. I just hope I wasn’t a lesson. I love you. Goodbye
