From: ABC
To: hayden
Date: November 19, 2020, 2:02 am
Adults always tell us that falling in love at a young age is impossible. Or that it will never last.Though I am not agreeing nor disagreeing with them, they shouldnt make it seem like the worst thing on Earth. Falling in love multiple times slowly deteriorates your hope. All I wanted in life is to have someone. I dont care if its one person or two people. I just want someone. No matter how many times you hurt me or broke me I still came back. Im not saying i regret what we had, I regret what i didnt do or didnt say. I have no voice when it came to you. It hurts like hell seeing you with any girl. Though its been months since weve even seen eachother or talked. I wish you would talk to me. But I know i shouldnt. i know you will take advantage of me again. im slowy trying to move on and see other people. As a matter of fact I found someone I know will treat me better, but there's something holding me back. And that something is you. No matter how much you hurt me and make me feel like crap, I will never tell you how awful you made me feel about myself. And I cant ever hate you. But for now there is nothing I can do or say. Im scared i will soon run out of time. I know you dont miss me. You miss the thought of having a girlfriend. You miss the thought of having someone that you know damn well you had me wrapped around your finger and i wouldnt ever speak up. To think I even gave you another chance let alone 5. I will never hate you. I will never make you feel the way I did. I hope you find the girl I never was. I just wished you would have told me how you truly felt. I hope when you find the girl of your dreams, i hope to god she treats you well and passes your needs and wants in a girl. I really wish I was good enough for you. Ive always grown up to seeing people never last. Ive never even seen anyone in my family thats together and happy. I just wanted to be enough for someone. Thank you for opening my eyes and teaching me not to fall in love with someone that doesnt know what they want. I just hope i wasnt just a lesson. I love you. Goodbye.
