no you arent my first love, i dont even see me dating you ever. but you are my best friend, i guess. why does you always have to one up me in everything. you always argue with me whenever we dont agree. you always gaslight me. you always make me feel like im the bad guy. you get mad at me for everything as if its not your fucking fault. why do you always have to be on top of me all the fucking time? why cant you let me have one fucking thing for myself? you make it so difficult for me to want to converse with you. you hate emily so much because of what she did to me but you are starting to do the same fucking thing. i hate how you are acting right now and if this is who you truly are, i never want to talk to you ever again. please stop being a fucking asshole.