please god say absolutely nothing if you find this, i cannot stomach that hope of you again. you saved my life in ways i hope you’ll never understand. you’re the most beautiful person i’ve ever seen. you didn’t break my heart, i broke my heart off of you and i can never fault you for the pain i am in. you deserve every bit of goodness and peace that you find. you are unconditionally loved. i only want you to be happy. you’re a marvel. thank you, a million times thank you