i know that you weren't actually serious. neither i am but it still hurts. maybe it's just a trauma from past. i was a different person. i tried to change. and i did. i didn't want you to see it. but i couldn't hide it. i want to delete it. because it is not a joke anymore when you become personal. i don't know what i like about you and you are truly toxic. i hate you but i can't at the same time, too. i just hate myself. but i hope you don't.