i don’t really know what to say. i don’t know that the fuck is wrong with me but i base all my emotions on how much we talk and hang out. i don’t think i like you at all but i love you with all of my heart. you create such a strain on me. i can’t tell whether you care about me because sometimes you do and sometimes you don’t. i don’t even know honestly what i want from you. i think i just want you to care? or maybe spend time with me? let me know that i’m valued in your life and not some little replaceable mannequin. i honestly don’t think you would care if i died or disappeared. you become interested in me and then lose it suddenly. maybe i’m just an uninteresting person. i just wished you loved me as much as i love you.