I think I just figured out why I never liked when mom called you my “sister”. It’s because I’m in love with you. Honestly who better to be in love with than my bff,right? I see a future with you ! A family. Maybe kids one day idk. But I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to tell you. I guess I’ll just have to put those feelings aside. I would hate myself if I’d lose you bc I’m so in love w/you. Ughhh. I lost you once and I really can’t bare to lose you again. If you find this then it was meant to be found but if not. I guess that’s my answer. Love z