i wish i could tell you how sorry i am without looking like an idiot. i know now how horrible i was to you, and you deserved so much better. thank you for sticking with me, even though i fucked up over and over again. you were like an older sister to me, and i ruined it. i would take it all back in a heartbeat if i could. from the bottom of my heart, i am so fucking sorry. i hope you're doing well, and that you're happy.