Unsent Messages

I miss talking to you till the sun came up when neither of us could fall asleep and I miss being able to just talk and laugh with you. I remember the first time you kissed me I could feel/hear your heart beat and falling asleep with you was one of the nicest feelings in the world. I miss being your friend. I miss you. I don’t have that special someone who somehow makes me magically feel okay anymore, just seeing your name pop up on my phone made me smile. I can’t do, watch or listen to certain things without thinking about you now. I wish things didn’t change between us because I really liked the way things were. I think the saddest part is that I was genuinely falling for you but you were still thinking about her....I’ve been learning how to be better. I’m (trying) to learn how to find happiness and worth within myself, without the constant validation of others. I’m not there yet but when I am it’ll be nice. I wish you didn’t change, you used to be a sweet and genuine person who was too afraid to kiss a girl but then you changed into something different... I know this “letter” is all over the place but I think that’s fitting