Unsent Messages

I’ve never fell so hard for someone in my life. I didn’t know what love was until I met you. I was, and will always be, so in love with you. You were everything I ever wanted. I’m so so sorry if I hurt you by being insecure or scared. I never wanted that. I just wanted you and I should have known it was too good to be true. I was right in the long run. I still think about you almost daily. I wonder how you’re doing, how your family is. If you still think of me, even in a bad way. I know the guys talk bad about me and I’d hope you don’t but if you do I understand. I still love you. I wonder if I died you would cry. If I just disappeared you would care. Would it hurt? I know if you left forever I’d be devastated. You were the first person I truly fell in love with. I just wish I could go back and do everything so different. The fact that you’ll never see this hurts ngl. I want you to know how I feel, even though you never cared how I felt when we were together. When I lost you I lost everything I had. I was left empty. I’m trying so hard to forget about you but it’s so hard to forget the first boy you fall head over heels for. It’s a one in a million chance I’ll ever talk to you again, but it’s still a chance and I’ll wait forever if I have to. I’m working on myself not only to be better for the people around me but for you, if you ever come back to me. I’ll be the best I can for you. I really tried to do that the first time but I guess my best wasn’t really my best. I took you for granted. I had the world at my feet. You were my world and I lost you. I’m so sorry. I love you…forever and always