Unsent Messages

i’ll never know the reasons why you did what you did. that bothered me for awhile. now i don’t really care what you do. it’s strange because i’m moving on from you and i’m slowly losing myself too. maybe i’m becoming a new person? or i do in fact need you in my life. we said that we would message each other on the 13th of each month. i don’t know if that’s a good or bad thing. i’m accepting the fact that you’ll never get to talk to me again and i’m actually okay about it. i think i’ve found someone better than you. someone who’s very special to me and someone who i deeply love. i’m scared that what happened between us is going to happen again. it’s always in my mind when i talk to her and i can’t help but become distant at times but most of all i’m scared to get hurt again but i can feel it coming and i can feel myself shutting down in fear of being hurt. you have impacted me for life and it’s not in a good way.