Unsent Messages

hey, i’m sorry i left. i really didn’t want to but i think it was better for both of us and you practically gave me every reason/hint to. you would repeatedly tell me “we have nothing in common,” which is true, but i still wanted to at least try and make things work out. you wouldn’t really put effort either. after that, you would take from hours to days to respond and gave me no explanation of why whatsoever, and no, “i was busy” isn’t valid. i don’t hate you at all but no matter how hard i tried to stay friends, you always made it so obvious you weren’t willing to put in the same effort to keep me in your life. but that’s totally alright, and i’m becoming kind of glad that you did. never in my life did i think i’d ever leave you, and to be completely honest, i think there was a misunderstanding between us because i didn’t mean to. but i’ve understood my worth clearer and i’ve seen “us” from and outsider’s perspective. it's required for me to love myself first before i can have anyone else love me. for this, i’m letting you go, which is painful; i miss you. but i know it’d do nothing but harm for me, as i only want to be your friend, but can’t watch you with somebody else. i know by staying in your life, you’d catch feelings as well (if you already lost them), and we’d both have to go through all this pain of not having each other in our daily lives again. or you’d catch feeling for someone else, and i’d have to pretend i’m fine with it. i want to say that time mends everything and we just need time apart, but as much as i want you, i really don’t think you’re my person and neither am i yours. who knows what the future holds; we might find each other again, if we’re meant to be in each other’s lives. but as of now, i just wanted to say goodbye. and thank you for all your happy memories. goodnight f