Unsent Messages

dark green is the color of the sweatshirt you gave me at the concert when i was cold. if i think about it hard enough, i can still feel the fabric. that was almost a year ago, can you believe it? i think about it when i miss you, which is all the time. i think of how you used to look at me. i think of when we used to hold hands and you rubbed your thumb across my hand, something about that soft simple gesture made me feel safe. you know how you feel emotions only in certain parts of your body? like fear, in your chest? or in your gut? When i feel love, i feel it everywhere. sometimes i love you so much my chest aches. i miss you. i wish you were here. or i was there. you keep me sane. i love you. i love you. i love you, always. i love you and my chest aches but i guess i just don't want you to go again.