Unsent Messages

i split bc i feel like we’re 2 different now maddy. quarantine changed me. when u knew me, i hated who i was, i tried 2 hard 2 fit in, when somebody didn’t like me it felt like the end of the world, i was so codependent n clingy it got toxic, i was lonely. tht was y i loved u so desperately maddy, bc i saw myself in u. u just wanted a friend, somebody who treated u like u were important, somebody who loved u more than anything else. i tend 2 b a fixer upper in these kinds of situations, n i knew i could give u what u wanted. i never thought u would give me what i wanted 2. i still read tht letter u wrote me last christmas. i still think abt how i was the first person u txted when u tried dying ur hair. i still wish 1 of my friends would randomly txt me ily like u did. sometimes i can still feel ur hand on my cheek as u wiped away my tears. u looked @ me like u saw stars in my eyes maddy. i used 2 wish i could b the person u thought i was. now i don’t have 2. i became her. i’m kind n i’m intelligent n i’m talented n superficiality doesn’t phase me anymore n i’ve ... grown up. i’ve grown apart from u, n you’ve grown apart from me 2. it doesn’t mean ur bad or undeserving or anything, it’s okay, it happens. if u ever need me, i will always b here 4 u. i will always love u w everything i am. but we’re meant 4 different things maddy. i had a tarot card reading once tht said our separation was apart of the big timeline. we were inevitable n we were meant 2 change us. some of my readings say we’ll meet again, others say this cycle is over, some say our pride is keeping us apart still. all of them say it’s up 2 us maddy. we’re in control of our own fate.