Unsent Messages

I should have listened to what people said about you. Every single person told me you would screw me over. I should've just ignored you like you were just another guy who called me hot. but for whatever reason you listened to me and called me gorgeous and snuck out to see me and FaceTimed me every night and let me rest my drunk head on you and made me feel safe. But you also made me feel like I was in a constant competition with other girls, like I was stupid, like you were too busy for me, like you couldn't trust me, like I was nothing more than my body to you. Why I stuck with you for so long I'll never know. I tried so hard with you, to change you, to give you chances and you fucked it up every single time. I was so easy to please and you always missed. I miss the little things you did. The fact we went from what we were to this is fucking sad. That safe feeling you gave me before has gone to shit. My stomach drops when I see your name, I look down when I walk past you, when you talk to me I stutter. I fucking hate you so much for killing me a little everyday.