this isn't for my first love but more for my self I feel so alone right I just need close my mouth and tell nobody how I feel but at the same time I want to but everyone is like wtf. I'm trying to work on myself I hate myself right now this is the worse I ever felt but I just don't know what to tell people I don't even think im worth of love anymore I dont understand im tired I just want to be over with all this bullshit I just want be happy for once I feel so trapped I don't know what I doing wrong I just want to be alone