I'm sorry for the confusion. Unfortunately this is not a love note.

I want you to love yourself as much as I love you. You at least deserve that much, y'know? I'm sure there was not one day that went by where I didn't think about you. You're really easy to think about. I feel like more people should be thinking about you all the time, it would make more sense to me. You have a certain thing about you, which I'd never really seen before we became friends. It's like you made me feel wanted. I would give anything to feel that again. I've missed you a lot, you know. Don't tell my other friends-even if you don't know them- but you were always my closest. I never felt lonely being around you.

For some reason I've always really wanted to try an edible. Just to know what its like, and free brownie I guess haha. (: There's actually a lot or random things I really wanted to do. Like hopping trains, or sneaking out, or going out really late at night for a walk. Some were even just as simple as going outside in the rain just to mess around. I don't want to die really. But if I cant live, I want you to do it for me. I don't care what you do or where you go, I just want you to live the years I can't for me, okay? Whatever you do, as long as you're happy it'll be perfect. please

Promise you'll tell me all about it.