Unsent Messages

I’m sorry I let you go. I should of held onto you and told you that I loved you more than the stars in the sky. If it were in my powers I would have given you the world, expecting nothing in return, just to see you smile. You brought me so much happiness, but I let my jealousy ruin everything. I wanted to matter to you the way you mattered to me. I felt like I was losing my hold on you, and so I let go. I pushed you away from me in hopes that you would press your way back into my life and tell me you loved me, too. But you let me go. What you told me you thought of me shattered my world, it made me want to throw up. I haven’t slept a day since, I haven’t slept a day without seeing your smiling face. You holding my hand, pulling me along the hallways, you laughing at my jokes, and I would reach out only to find you gone. I stare at the bed where you used to lie and I remember when we would lay here laughing. We would hide away together, I believed so much that we would grow old together. But I let go, and you let me.