I wish that you were happier and I wish that I could have done more to help you. You weren't just a little sad. You tried to kill yourself and did nothing about it afterwards. You put everyone through hell and now it's like you don't even care enough to fix what drove you to that place. Please get help and get happy because you are supposed to be happy. You're supposed to get a happy ending but it looks like your life is taking a turn for the worst. I don't know how you're going to turn it back.