I had a dream about you the other night. I screamed at you and said that I hated you, but I still loved you. The two most opposite things in the world, but how is it true that I feel both for you? Seeing you having lunch with my ex best friend last week, broke me. All the feelings I've ever had for you came flooding back. I don't know what to do. I want so badly to reach out to you, but I don't think I can take anymore pain. I hate that if you called me right now, I'd pick up in an instant. I hate that I miss you. I hate that you broke my heart. I hate that I am still searching for a way to put it back together. I hate that I still love you even after all you've put me through.