I’m addressing this to you, but to be honest, it’s probably to everyone I’m closest to. I hate myself so much. I wish I were a different person. I don’t like myself, not just for how I look, but how I act. I’ve even wanted to kill myself over this. I’m a terrible person, I’m terrible to the people around me. And about the person in my life who died in my life recently, well, it should have been me. I’m lazy, pathetic, and worthless. I can’t see myself living a happy life and I can’t see a future for myself, but I’m afraid of dying. I hope one day I’m not though, so you guys can live a happier life without me. That’s all.