Unsent Messages

Hey. I just wanted to let you know I'm okay. I miss you so much. I am truly sorry for everything that happened between us. I'm sorry we drifted. I'm sorry we are not friends anymore. I am sorry we don't text or facetime anymore. I am so so so sorry. I love you. I'm like truly in live with you boy. It is so hard not seeing or talking to you every day anymore. It's hard. Like really hard. I cry so much because I just miss seeing your face and I miss your voice. I miss how you would smile when I walked into class. I miss how I would sit on the lab tables and you would go in between my legs and look into my eyes. I miss goofing off with you in class and Friday nights. I'm like in love with you and I just can't let you go. But you can't see how bad it hurts me. It kills me. I just want to see you one last time and tell you how I truly feel about you. I can't take this anymore. I'm giving up without you being here to tell me everything is okay. I miss being held in your arms. The long hugs. The talks we have had. I have known you for years. We were best friends but I fucked it up. I fucked us up. It's my fault. I unblocked you. But I just can't add you back. It is so hard to and I don't know why. It is so hard to let you go because I don't wanna let you go. I get angry when you get a gf. When I shouldn't. i am obsessed with you and everything about you. I just miss you and I want everything to go back to the way it was before anything happened.