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Hi boo,
You look really good in black so I wanted to do that color for this but I know your favorite is purple. Every time i see purple I think about you. I think about when we layed in the hammock and you played a 60s music playlist. We layed there listening we didnt say anything. The sun was poring through the trees holding us up. You ran your fingers across my face gently. I loved when you did that it calmed me down and made me feel special. Then you asked me when you wanted to get married. You were always so sure we would get married. Why did that change? I remember the day you asked me how long do you think we'll last? I answered I don't know I don't want to jinx it. I really thought you were asking because you wanted me to say forever. Not tell later did I piece together that you had asked me because you were talking to your ex and telling her you would end things with me. I wish you couldve seen me when I found out. Even if you had seen it I know you would care because why would you do it in the first place. I had to have one of her friends tell me. I was shaking. It hurt so bad. I wanted you to know how much it hurt and I tried to tell you but you didnt care. I wanted to confront you in your face and tell you I knew but i couldnt. I got halfway there but I couldnt do it. Matt was there though I saw him and I broke down. All I said was he cheated and he pulled me into the tightest hug. Of course you saw that and jumped to conclusions. That isnt even the worst thing youve done. I hate you. You are a horrible person so why do I wish so badly you woud change and come back to me. I want to be with you forever. You are the only person that makes me feel this way.