i never thought i'd be writing this but here i am. you were the first person i got to experience love with, well physically. i don't remember much of it though. i vaguely remember what happened the night of my birthday and what happened after. it still hurts to think that you fell out of love. i don't love you anymore and i've moved on, but it scares me that i might just cave in if you ever came back. regardless, thank you for giving me the opportunity to love you and to be loved by you. i hope you're well