Unsent Messages

hi, words don't describe how I feel or think about you. when you first came into my life I didn't know how much you would mean to me. I still can't believe Im not over you, its been almost a year. and I don't think I'm every getting over you. I'm never going to forget you. you were my first kiss, first guy I felt loved by, first guy I cuddled with, first guy that made me feel something, first guy to see me naked , first guy I brought to my house, and first guy my parents met. lastly, the first guy I actually loved. the funny part is, is that I realized I loved you till after you left. you have no idea how much I would do to go back and save our silly middle school relationship. you are completely different from the rest. I've never met someone who's caused me to feel the most loved and hurt at the same time. I hate that its this way. only if you knew though. the playlist I'm listening while writing this just played your favorite song at the moment, what a coincidence lol. I feel stupid thinking you have ever felt this way about me because I know you will never see me the way I see you. I hope we never part ways. I don't wan to lose you forever, even if we're just friends. I wish you could see this but I don't think you ever will. I feel dumb again because I know you never were in love with me. I don't think ill ever feel this way for anyone ever again. maybe in the far future we could be together again. I love you gio, I don't think ill ever stop for now. but for now we're just friends I guess. I will forever cherish our memories and I hope to make more.