Unsent Messages

I'll never forget the day that we met up for the first time by ourselves. From that day we met every weekend, and each time I still had crippling anxiety because i'd be scared of doing and saying the wrong things. From then on we started to hang out with the rest of the friend group and I loved it so much, but then you turned into something that mentally drained me constantly. You'd keep coming to me with the same issues constantly, and i'm not complaining about that because i know how tough things used to get for you. I'm complaining about the fact that each time you came to me with those same problems, you wanted constant attention and advice and trust me, some of the stuff you came to me used to make me worry about you constantly, which was why I couldn't help so much and give you advice. Even after that, you started to take everything so literal, almost as if you couldn't take a joke. Even after me and the rest of the friend group tried to talk to you, you wouldn't budge so we gave up. But then, you'd start complaining that we didn't care about you? And the fact you had the audacity to say that after everything we did for you was just sickening in every way possible and it really made me start to think hard about your behaviour. Thats when the penny finally dropped and you decided to cut yourself from the friend group by saying that it's all my fault, that I never cared about you, that I hated you, and since then that really sent me off the edge. Everything, everything I did was for you, your wellbeing, your mentality and yet you can't and never saw that did you? You only care about yourself, no one else. When did you ever ask me, or anyone else in the friend group if they were okay if they were having a bad day or just in general? Never, and yet the rest of us used to ask you daily because we cared that much about you. You're a sickening human being, Jack. I'm so sorry you decided to live that way and treat people like that because if i were you i'd sort myself out right now because going on like that won't get you anywhere. I can finally have closure and say goodbye.