I miss you. a lot. i still wish things could go back to normal. I still see you around, and i know that i still love you. and i hate myself for it. i just wish i could go back to normal, i want to be able to be around you without it hurting. i want to be able to joke and laugh and not have my chest feel tight and tears well up in my eyes every time im around you. i wish you werent the reason i lie awake at night aching to have you close to me, missing the way we'd talk at 2am on your trampoline, watch supernatural until we fell asleep...i dont think ill ever be over you..but for now this is goodbye.