From: ABC
To: Jake
Date: November 12, 2020, 9:53 am
i loved you, i know i never said it, but i did. i wish i could relive summer with you and just feel a couple things twice. Sometimes i type your name into my phone and just stare, i know you miss me and i miss you but we both know we cant go back. sometimes i wonder why we continue to torture ourselves, why do we always find our way back? i think we both knew we were never just friends, no matter how many times we said it. im sorry i laughed when you said i love you, i didnt know what to say. i did love you at the time, but i dont anymore. i cant love someone like you anymore. i cant keep giving my everything to you just to get nothing back, it killed me for 3 years. i wonder if im in your dreams like youre in mine, i wonder if you think of me when you hear that one weeknd song, i wonder if you type my name and erase it, i wonder if you type out texts to me and beg yourself not to send them like i do. i wonder a lot about you. i wonder a lot what wouldve happened if i wouldve stayed back on that july sunday, do you think we would still be here?