Unsent Messages

im sorry i hurt you. i hurt u because I was hurting inside. i couldn't be the best person that you deserved because that is with no doubt what you deserve. the best. you deserve someone that will always love you no matter the flaws or mistakes you make, and will be there to lift you up when you're at you're lowest. I know I could be that person for you, but I couldn't be it for myself and I just couldn't put you through that. in the past, I thought you would be that person for me without a doubt. but I fucked up. I broke you and little did you know it broke me even more. Every part of me aches when I think of all the pain I caused u. and im so sorry. all the words in the world will never express the regret and guilt I feel for the decision I made. I lost you because I lost myself and it was the saddest and hardest thing I've ever went through. three years ago and I still think about you every single day. every day I have the strongest urge to tell you how I feel. to tell you im sorry. to tell you why I did what I did without any explanation. no one has ever made me as happy as u and I can't move on from that. from you. I will love u forever and its okay if you can't say it back. thats the last thing I deserve.