Unsent Messages

why?

why did you treat me the way you did?

i left because it was too much, i left because you made me feel guilty after every argument, i left because i was blinded by all the good things you gave me. i was blinded by the love and affection. i think i still love you though, i hate to admit it. you were my first love. you'll always be a part of me.

i left a piece of me when i left you. we were supposed to be each other's forever, and now look at us. we're not even friends. i gave you every part of me, why did you have to treat me how you did?

i wish we worked out. i wish you were still my person, but you're not. you probably won't ever be, and that scares me.

life without you scares me, what am i supposed to do? i need to let you go. i really don't want to, i miss you. i miss you so much. i miss seeing you smile, seeing you in my clothes, laughing at my jokes, i miss you so much.

but i can't. i won't go back. i don't deserve the way i was treated. but god, i would do anything just to hold you in my arms again.

i love you, but i can't.