I truly did love you Lauren. I know i never said it because I was scared of how you'd react but now more than ever I wish I had. You changed my life twice and I don't think i've ever really felt this strongly about anyone before. I know things didn't work and I hate that more than anything in the world because all I want is to take you on that date or even send you one more stupid video of my playing the ukulele. I think if I could I could die a happy man.