Unsent Messages

You know why I chose this color other than blue is my favorite. I will always love you and you hold a special place in my heart. I often wonder if you are right, and if we are meant for each other and the universe is throwing obstacles in our way. I wonder if we did give it a try if it would even work out. I'm scared to leave John after spending so long with him, and learning to love him. I don't want to hurt him. I'm scared we won't work. I'm scared of doing what I want and losing everything.

I hope these next few months tell me how this is supposed to work out. I hope we end up with the right people and not just comfortable with who we are with. It took forever for me to warm up to him, and I still don't feel as close to him as I did you only seeing you one day. If love at first sight is a thing, you and I had it. I want to make the right choice and for us to be happy.