Unsent Messages

it had been a year and a half since we had last talked until recently. I know our conversation was brief, but seeing you again made me realize how much i missed you. I regret what I did and im sorry for what happened between us. I have been in many relationships since whatever was left of us ended, but the only one I want is you. I love you and i have loved you since we met in 3rd grade. I wish i could talk to you and tell you this, but you hate me so i can't. I wish you would text me. I could never bring myself to block your number. I hate that I love you. I am supposed to hate you and I wish i did. I know you'll never see this and that if you do you wont think of me, but i wish you would and that you'd call me. I know you never loved me especially after all the things that happened, but I have always loved you. I hope that you loved me. Even for a second. I would give anything to go back and fix us. I miss the nightly facetimes and playing minecraft all night. I miss your laugh and your smile and blue eyes that look exactly like mine. I miss the way our hands fit together like puzzle pieces and how happy you made me. I am in love with you even though I absolutely shouldnt be. I wish you didnt hate me and that you loved me too. All of my friends hate you but I couldnt care less. If you ever see this which is unlikely i pray to god you think of me and text me or dm me or unblock me on snap. I love you.