Unsent Messages

It was never romantic love, but we were friends. I did love you in that way. You were my friend. You hurt me... well, you both did. But somehow it was easier to forgive you. I guess there isn't much to say. Part of me would like to know what really happened that night, if everything I've heard has been the truth (hey, you can't help but wonder?) but I don't know if I'll ever be ready to hear that. I never thought I'd be saying this... but I guess what I really want you to know is that I forgive you, and I don't hate you. Can't lie, I did hate you for a while. I hated you for almost a year, but I've let that go. I find myself even missing you sometimes. I hope you think kindly of me too. This is weird to be doing. I hope you never see this, but also hope you kinda do. And I hope deep, deep down you have a gut feeling I wrote this for you. I hope you're happy now, I know you weren't happy then. I'm trying to be happy too. Yeah I guess that's it. Just hope you're doing better. I'm so sorry for every mean thing I've ever said about you, I was really hurt then. I hope you know that. Stay safe I guess.