i miss the way u missed me. the late night texts. the hang outs. i miss u and i dont know if u were my first love or not but i just feel like we could have talked it out and connected. but u lied and it really stuck with me its been 10 months and every days the same and i miss u even more and think about u non stop. its just why her, the most basic girl out of everyone i just dont get it. i know u liked her from the jump but its just not fair. everyone tells me about how bad u were and toxic but i just miss the old u and the way u were there for me and always checked up on me. i hate how i still miss u and want u back when rn ur out hu with girls. im glad u got ur first kiss, i had a feeling u wanted to have it with me. but that never played out. its stupid to say but i feel like u were the right person wrong time and it really sucks. i hate it a lot actually. and these past months ive been missing u and u dont even have a clue. i just hope one day we come back together and figure out all our differences and just be happy together. and i want u to go back to ur old days, the old times where u were u and u were happy. thats the guy i miss and cherish. i dont and will never miss the new u and i know i wont. u turned into a real shitty person who knows it all and i hate it but its not going to stop me from wanting u and wanting to fix u. to help u go back to being the real u thats who i miss so much. i love u so much is unbearable.