Unsent Messages

I know I’ve written so many about you know but I’m just so pissed. I gave everything to you. Sucked your dick when you asked even though I said no. Let you do so many things to me hell you even snuck into my house after I said no so many times. And yet you have the audacity after I open my heart to you and say let’s be friends. To ignore me. Read my fucking text messages were I’m beginning you bc you’ve been with me for years. Half of my goddamn life. Fucking begging you to say something. Anything. Silence has never been so crushing. You know that was the darkest time of my life. All that shit with my parents and my family my whole life was ripped in half and YOU SAID YOUVE FUCKING BE THERE YOU LIAR. YOUR A GODDAMN LIER AND I TRUSTED YOU. I LOVED YOU. I CRIED FOR YOU. I fucking cried for you. I loved you and you left me anyway. After everything I’d done for you. I was there when you were down on your knees. I was on mine begging you and you walked away. You walked away. I was so close to hurting myself back then bc I felt like it was me. Maybe I wasn’t pretty enough or I didn’t do enough for him. I didn’t deserve you. But I was wrong. You never deserved me and that fucking hearts because I wanted you to deserve me so fucking bad. I wanted what we could be. We could’ve been so much more. We could’ve had a tomorrow but now all we have is broken yesterday’s.