I’m really scared your gonna leave me. I could never say that to you because you’d just say you won’t but, they all said the same thing. I lost so many people this year- no wait that’s wrong. So many people left me this year. They knew exactly where they were and decided they didn’t want to be there anymore. I wonder what place they found that was so much better than me? I wanna go there. Anyway Vanessa your my only friend now and I know I’ve said jokingly I wish we loved each other romantically but sometimes I’m not joking. I think I could love you. But it’s okay. I know you couldn’t love me