ross. i am so irrevocably and undeniably in love with you. i wish i knew how to handle these feelings. i wish i could love you with complete abandon but i’m always too worried about what others might say or think. i know you’ll probably be disappointed in me if you see this and wonder why i couldn’t just love you the way you deserve. it’s because you’re a great deal too good for me and i can’t love you the way i want to out of fear of my own unworthiness. it will haunt me everyday that you love me more than im capable of loving you back. if i cant go all in...i’d rather not go in at all. im convinced we’re each others soulmates...right people, wrong time. one day, when i love myself as much as you love me, we’ll be together...at last.