god i love you so much. i don't think you know and i'm terrified to tell you, i fuck everything up. i might leave soon, just so you know. you're amazing. i wish we could have everything you want, to travel to europe, to run away, to fucking live in a cottage even though both of us (or at least me) know it's so fucking impractical. god i'm so in love with you. i also have no idea how you feel about me but i guess i'll never find out