Unsent Messages

one last time, i know i am obsessive. please, just hear me out. you made me feel weak but fulfilled. you made me suffer, but also healed me. you made me become the person i am today. i wonder if you're different. i wonder if you've changed. honestly, i could care less. i know that deep down inside who you are. you're a poet. you're an artist. you let your words carry your voice out and beyond. you shined brighter than most when you did what you loved. i miss that so much about you. i think thats what i miss the most. i say i hate you, but i don't. i just can't handle the hatred. i cant handle the idea of you not liking me. you treated me poorly, but i don't mind. i would have gone through hell and back for you. love is a painful word now. it fills me with hatred and spite. it'll be fixed one day. just not by you.