Unsent Messages

I hate that you hate me I don’t know what I did but this all hurts. I miss all the happiness you used to bring me and now I feel like I can’t get anything from you I just wish it was so different. I wish this never would’ve happened I mean I probably should’ve known it was gonna happen because I’m just a horrible person to be with because I’m so terrified of someone coming in being better than me and being left for them. I just want to feel happy again and I don’t know if that’ll ever be with you again which it probably won’t or on my own but right now all of this hurts so much and I just feel like you don’t really care about it Or really care about me or how I feel. I just want things to be different I want it to be like how it used to be when we were happy and didn’t care what everyone thought I miss the days where I would get to see you and it would all just be full of love I miss being in your arms and just being with you but I know I’ll never get that back. I haven’t been able to sleep a full night of sleep in almost a month I barely eat anymore because I just don’t have the effort to and I know you’re going to be mad at me for sending you a text but my hearts hurting a lot right now and I don’t really know what to do about it. I’m sorry for everything that I’ve done to you I’m sorry I was a horrible girlfriend I’m sorry I caused so many fights and I should’ve just let it go. I’m sorry I ruined so much for you and us.