From: ABC
To: Ryder
Date: December 7, 2020, 4:36 am
okay so my friend has liked you since we were 9 and she's a psycho about that, and my best friend has a crush on you and won't admit it. And yours is a friendship I wouldn't trade for the entire world so I don't want to potentially ruin it. And we are so young and have so much time that I feel like it would be so much better if we waited. I can't tell if all of these are just excuses that I'm making to support commitment issues, or if they're valid reasons as to why I should continue to play this agonizing waiting game. Other people we're both interested in, immaturity, circumstances, and all the other good reasons to not. But somehow those million cons don't overshadow the few pros. Why? What do I do? How do I go on? so many questions and I don't know if you are the answer, but I want to find out. I want to find out because I think i really like the way you make me feel. i don't know, I'm just so confused.