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Hey reader I guess. I have a big crush on this girl and I don't like bothering people I know with who I like so I guess I will be telling you. The first time I realized I had feelings for her was during a party. Crazy right? Or technically the party was over, it was the sleepover after. I was lying down on the couch trying to go to sleep when out of the corner of my eye I see a balloon, she was blowing up balloons, at like midnight, first I was confused until I asked why then when she told me it was her friends birthday the next morning I thought that was really cool and soon the other girls and I decided to help. We ran around bopping the balloon and talking until everyone eventually went to bed. The next day she was in sweats and had a messy bun, I thought she looked amazing even though I'm sure she would have disagreed. I could never shake these feelings and every-time there was a party I would leave any other conversation to go and try start a new one with her. Sadly there haven't and wont be any parties anytime soon, I'm still confused by my feelings for her but I needed to get that off my chest.