You're not a first love. Just a hookup and a dumb mistake. I heard you're feeling guilty about it right now.
Good riddance, you deserve misery. No one forced you to tell everybody you fucking now details about us hooking up.
Best part of all this is that you didn't even get me off a single time, so here's the tea for everyone you told the story from your perspective: he really ain't shit and I regret it.